Unbearable Suffering: My Battle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around one eye that lasts for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe agony focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual remedies for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

The official guidelines need updating to reflect a
Natalie Ramos
Natalie Ramos

A tech enthusiast and digital strategist with a passion for exploring emerging technologies and their impact on creative industries.